However difficult it was to stop working overnight, to stop living the way I was used to, the harder it is for me to crawl back out of the shelter. The past few months I felt everything at the same time: safe but unsafe, relaxed but stressed, active but tired. It seems like this should come to an end as my country slowly comes back to life.
But...it isn’t over yet, right? I secretly hoped for that and my fear for this ‘new normal’ we are about to explore is HUGE. Wearing face masks, travel again by public transport, rehearsing with a two meter distance...
So I felt resistance. “Because it isn’t over yet.” As I’m writing this, sitting on the beach, watching a group of teenagers running into the sea, together but at a distance while screaming with laughter, I realise it won’t be over soon. However, that doesn’t mean we can’t make the most of it.
So today I wore a face mask, caught a train to Amsterdam and rehearsed with my beloved Syrène quartet, that I haven’t seen in months. This Sunday we’ll play a livestream concert. And even though we have to learn to live with this ‘new normal’, I can’t wait to get out there again!